Im back - Dark Angel
Sep. 8th, 2006
09:37 am - Im back
Well Here I am. I am back. My time here in the Army is crazy. I have very little time to do anything that people in the normal world would think of as easy. I miss all my friends, family and loved ones. I have no idea as to when I will be coming home for a visit at this time. The Army has changed me in so many ways I think the people back home will not know who I am anymore. I have lost a total of 108 lbs. Thats a Hollywood cat walk model right there. Pretty crazy. My knees are shot but there is nothing that can be done to fix them so I just have to "soldier on".
I have fulfilled my dream and made my father proud. I am delighted to say that I have done more in my life (26 years) than 3% of the nations population has done in thiers. I joined the Army in the time of war and earned the respect of the officers above me. In 5 months I have come a very long way and I know that over the next few years I will be one hell of an American Soldier. I bet my grandfather is jumping from cloud to cloud proud as hell right now!
In other news I am still finding it hard to move on to the next stages of my life alone without that one person that makes me feel hole. Someday I know he will find that it is ok to love and feel and be his self without the worry of hurting anyone with his emotions. He is a very strong man and I see so many great things come from him. I just wish he could see what I see. If he trusts me the way he says he does, then he will know that all is good. I am in love with him and I know that scares the hell out of him because of the way he thinks he feels or lack there of but I am here for him if he wants me.
So anyway I must go for now. My play time is over so I shall return the next time there is a little peace around here.
Loves to all,